imagine, if you will, a horror movie of the truly terrifying sort. something evil is about to happen, and eventually it does. but your fear does not subside for you're not even half-way through the movie, and each new wave of sheer panic is going to be worse. stretch this movie over months and years. time is not a healer. it grates the core of your soul down to a hollow depression, that darkens, deepens you forever.