22/05/2012

limelight


what a miserable sod...

spot-on, gentlemen, spot-on.
you see, two years ago to the day
was the happiest day in our life.

spot off.

17/05/2012

they got their money back, so that's ok


so deafening at first,
your death bell's toll
is receding at last
into the close-by hills

but no - the echo
bounces back from
an infinity of mundane objects
until my soul rings like a
Tibetan prayer bowl
rendering what's worldly frivolous

I love not, desire no one
no room now for the
feedback loop
of subsconsciousness

oh my love, my only love -
could I only write about anything else,
but the damage is done,
and the crowd shoves in to see
nine lives gone at once.

I'm yearning for a friend

15/05/2012

orchidaceae


new data over old data
erase-overwrite
as life moves on

at least while it does,
for will I join you in the grave
sooner or later?
later would be fine
so I can become myself
again

in the meantime, a flower
would be fine

11/05/2012

earthquake weather


the distant sky above
is filthy like mud

this must be the lowest point
in-between this world of hills
for whichever way I turn
I always roll back
until I don't move again.

so spit in your palms
and rub your hands -
there's work to be done, old man

09/05/2012

done thinking




lightning’s split the thinking tree
in three

there's
nothing
to think about
anymore,
nothing to decide


08/05/2012

hüzün



hollow empty quiet –
this house in the rain

where you will never know
that, yes, I'll be driving
the damn mercedes
any day now

where you talk to me no more
when I report
the 2nd orange slice
of cancer
they’ve cut
out of me.

[no, it won’t get me]

hollow empty impassive –
these pointless underwater days

where you hear me no more
as I fight back sadness
like an urge to retch
until only a numb, deep pain
in my gut remains.

I miss you
in these silent days.

the key is gone

02/05/2012

slow learner


I think I have to rephrase: you said não sei viver sem ti, e agora vais ter de viver sem mim
- I don’t know how to live without you

I don’t. what we did together has become nothing now,
and I sit and stare