All Tomorrows

2012-01-29T13:45:00.001-08:00

Today you said:

"I can't live without you, and now you 'll have to live without me"

2012-01-26T22:22:00.001-08:00

FEAR EATS SOUL

two worlds

2012-01-16T08:56:00.000-08:00

outside the window
the world is in love
with its carousel of
rain: light: moss: clover

while inside the globe
of our air-tight world,
the red hot wire of
pain punctuates
days.hours.minutes.seconds

my enclosed mind soars
ten miles high:
the 737's gentle drone:
the unread book:
water twinkle in glass:
sky outside fade into:
space:
above

time.halts.

where it hurts

2011-12-15T06:24:00.000-08:00

in the ultimate silence
of the gathering dark
let me mould my words
and rephrase the past
for an angel that weighs
the sweetest of heads against these words.

godlike, my love. godlike.
the world you have shaped
we all at your feet, we all your feat
you solved us all, absolved our tears
an arrow, an anvil of pure fire
so you moulded the world
for us, and us alone

your light we absorbed
and drank you dry
a thirst-ridden whirlwind of beggars

but now our house has grown still
vast empty spaces that nothing can fill
as you whither away
into a dark speck of pain

the beggars are gone
as if they’d never been
and the silence grows darker
till my ears ring

I cup my hands around your flame
that never needed words
for a goddess sheds light

so on I fight while the world retreats
I fight the dark, I fill the stillness
I lay the world upon your altar

for the world will be words
when you are gone,
and words are for angels
that can’t be undone.
when you are gone
no angels can save me.
and so I rise and

fight

the past a feather

2011-11-25T08:41:00.001-08:00

the arms a cage
no wings to clip
my eyes bound soilward
the horizon’s too far

oh were there just
angels listening
to still our hearts
with a healing smile
in black and white

chennai

2011-11-23T07:58:00.001-08:00

our house in chennai,
white-washed maze of bougainvillea
amidst curtains of purple, red and yellow
we and the family are sound asleep
i rise from myself
float over to you, lower my face
close to you
and let my eyes turn black
like in a japanese manga, to scare you.
i know i will pay for this

so the house dissolves, and you and i
and all whom we know
are waiting now for the
train to take us away
until i remember that i have to go back
pick up the bags and return to the station
for the journey on to mumbai

so while rumbling deep now,
the buildings roll, the waves grow deeper
we rush into the hotel foyer
terracotta floor, terracotta walls
and hollow arches
against the terracotta floor,
your bougainvillea dress
shines bright across the empty space
and the floor rolls onward to us
you're static and stare
so i grab you and pull
as the floor rolls towards us in waves
the arches cave in
your eyes turn black
i can’t pull you out
this is how i pay
while the world collapses

scattered

2011-11-20T08:54:00.000-08:00

nothing is now what it was
bliss has been scattered
along this darkest of journeys

yes, i envy you -
clammed shut in the fragrant
cleanliness of solitude